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           Due to the characteristics of specialized high schools, it should remain. Since they provide students to study deep insight, it can be the best way to produce generalists, if they made their future stance clearly, for example Science High schools. Not only professionalized education, specialized schools also provide students experiences on various fields that normal schools don’t provide.

           Because the election season has returned, the opposition party’s nominee says that the specialized high schools are the major problems for old-boy network and private education. But the root cause of these problems is the levels between universities. Why downward standardizing? Can’t it be upward standardizing, or specializing?

           Without providing any measures for public normal educations, the slogan to make specialized high schools to normal schools is not more than the example of populism.

Ben X overall review 500 words

           Ben X was one of the absurd films that I’ve watched. We watched this clip covering 2 classes, and the feelings I felt was quiet different between 2 classes. First half was sympathetic, and the other half was embarrassing. Overall, it just felt like I haven’t flush toilet after excretion.

           At first, the clip began as if it’s dealing with some online game addiction problems. Clip started with the log on screen of certain online game, and simultaneously, one haggard boy’s playing was shown. So, naturally I thought ‘Oh, the contemporary issue about online game addiction among teenagers.. Quiet cliché I think, and why Mr. Garrioch’s showing this clip to us?’ Even until the shot that Ben, the boy, is taking psychological counseling, I thought it was dealing with the game addiction.

           Ben, the boy, is suffering from the autism. I don’t remember the exact name of it (though the doctor said that it’s something autism, which seems it’s the detailed branch of autism, but maybe not that important), but it seemed quiet critical to his life. Since he has autism, he’s got few problems that threaten his social life. For example, he barely speaks to his friends, which make him to be an outsider and being bullied by so-called friends. Not only his communication skill, he’s easily distracted by the sounds of his surroundings, even to the sound of a clock ticking.

           Considering this is faction, I wasn’t able to understand the Ben’s parents (though they seemed to be divorced). Why they keep his son to be suffering from the normal school? Why they won’t let him go to special school? Why they are letting him to play the online game whole day?

           Before the meeting of his imaginary girlfriend, I just criticized parents, teachers, and his friends. But after the meeting, I just thanked his parents to let him to play the game. Though it’s imaginary, with his girlfriend, his minds were able to be stabilized. With this happy development, I felt comfortable, with the feeling of sympathetic washing away.

           However, I was extremely embarrassed when he committed a suicide on ferry. He seemed to be happy, but he installed a camcorder to record the moment of his suicide, and he fall down to the deep sea. So, when I saw it, I thought he realized the truth, the truth that his girlfriend is imaginary which means he lost all his hope on the earth, so he committed suicide.

           Surprisingly, more embarrassing moment was waiting for me. He wasn’t actually dead. It was a fake; he just fall down to the first floor of a ferry, not into the deep sea. It was just to pull out the sympathy from the deep inside of their (teachers, friends, acquaintances) hearts. More surprisingly, it was all his ideas. He brainstormed, planned and executed. Whatever, with the successful plan to take sympathy out from the heart, he and his family settle in the rural.

           Since the ending was so unpredictable and unlikely, also very urgent, I just thought that this absurd ending came out from the lack of the director’s ability. He took more than he could handle. Thus, the ending seems very abrupt. Well, since Ben’s having melliferous moments with his imaginary girlfriend inside the film, I don’t have THAT much negative view over the clip. But still, the abrupt ending and some unexpected (but to the negative meaning) moments seem to be the minus point for the movie. One word summarize: I liked it, but not so much.

In class writing #3 Better becareful when using silence

           Although silence doesn’t make any sound to stimulate one’s ears, it can deliver various meanings. It depends on the situations; it can be implicating only one concept, or sometimes can be implicating more than 2 meanings simultaneously.

           Since, I don’t feel comfortable with unknown people. I don’t speak lot when there’s an unknown person. Sure, if there’s one person at least. This can be regarded as shyness, but my problem occurs from another aspect. I often forget to speak: which means, I thought I spoke out my ideas, but actually I haven’t.

           Due to this, adults think I’m a considerate person. While my friends think I often neglect them. Somehow, what I want to express is the story of the mismatch between my brain and tongue.

           The story has 2 perspectives. My friend A, and another friend B. I have a close friend who is a girl, which is very problematic under the embargo upon the relationship between 2 different genders. Thus, I was very careful about every question asked about whether she’s my girlfriend or not. In this situation, I often get made, because it’s hard to understand why the relationship between two different genders should be regarded firstly as an erotic relationship. Of course, I also got mad the day when A and B asked me about it. I was to say ‘unlikely’ but my cacophony between my tongue and brain made me to keep silence. Suddenly, they conjectured my answer, and their guesses were different. A told me that I couldn’t deny she’s my girlfriend, and B told me that I couldn’t speak because I was so mad. How interesting that one silence produced two totally different thoughts!

           For the epilogue, even if it’s not true, my status became “in a relationship” among my friends. From this happening I’ve got 2 lessons. It can be quiet helpful to use silence if I can’t make a stance, and sometimes the silence produces conjecture which produces delusion. From my unpleasant experience, I now got the guidelines for when to or not to use silence. I’m also concentrating more, not to make unintended silence that might cause any delusions. Due to my extreme effort, now I’m better in the use of silence, not making delusions(due to silence) as much as before this incident.

Flash Fictions

Flash Fictions

1.     Last thing I remember, I was trying to make light saber, and I saw a bright light.

2.     The ball hit something, so that no one could know his original speed.

3.     After the simple harmonic oscillation, the explosion came. Everyone was satisfied about it.

4.     Blink, blink, blink. Why it became so dim?

5.     For a short second of time, I thought it was a robber. Wait?!

6.     Geronimo!

7.     I saw eyes on the mirror, over the closet. But there was nothing.

8.     It does feel like I’m falling asleep.

9.     Spark made a plasma, plasma made stick to burn, the smoke made brain to work.

10.   4 minutes 33 seconds

Simple feelings about Ben X #1

           It’s always exciting when we watch films during the class time. However, since we watched Earthlings on Mr. Garrioch’s class, our films get more gloomy day by day. What we watched last class was Ben X, the film about the autistic teenager suffering on the school.

           When the film began, the loading windows of World of Warcraft excited us, and the morbidly playing player loosen up our afraid about the contents of it. Because we watched Earthlings last time, I was very bothered by my conjecture on the film; won’t it be disgusting like the Earthlings did?

           The movie seemed quiet normal until the player, Ben, gets out of his home and take a walk for his school. When I was at middle school, I saw some students bothered by every sound they hear, and psychologically very fragile due to their addiction of computer games. Thus, Ben didn’t seem to be so unusual or creepy. Even sometimes I’m that much sensitive to the sounds I hear, and don’t want to have any communications with my acquaintances.

           However, when the scene reached to the point where Ben’s bullied by so-called friends, especially in the way of sexually harassing, and the result was posted online, I felt extremely sorry about him. Though I’m not his friend nor know him in offline world, I just couldn’t understand why there’s actually no one who keeps him from bullying. Sure, there seemed to be one, who passed the video recorder to Ben, but he actually didn’t stop bullies. Also, the other things I couldn’t understand were the attitude of adults toward his autism. Why his parents keep him to study in the school where he can’t have any protections? Why the teacher of him says such phrases like, “He’s different and we must accept it”, even in front of him? Can’t it be an abrasion for him? Why the principal wants him to say all things that are done to him, in front of the bullies? Why doctors are not so serious about his autism, and just speak in arid ambience? For me, all of those seem not effective to the autism.

           Frankly speaking, it wasn’t creepy for my at all, unlike my classmates. However, it was too gloomy to accept and to face the fact of his being harassed. Also, due to the interviews conducted to his acquaintances, such as his mother, I can’t hesitate myself from watching the rest part of the film. What will happen after these sequences of events?